August, give me a break!

So August is not doing me any favors! I started my triple dose of Letrozole, which went successfully I think. I can't say that I had any negative side effects. But my father has been sick and we have been in and out of doctors offices and hospitals for over a week now. I am exhausted and feel like I am neglecting things at home, which my husband is very understanding about. 
So with all of this going on, today is my cycle day 11. I began the LH surge tests today. Negative, of course. I never ovulate this early in my cycle. So I will try my best to remember to pee in a cup tomorrow and dip the stick! 

The next journey has begun

After a much needed break from all things "baby", we have decided to being again. I visited my new OBGYN in June for "routine maintenance" aka Pap exam, which was normal. The visit was great though, I mean, I have never felt as comfortable at one of these appointments as I did this time with this doctor and staff. (This is my third Gyno.) He even cracked jokes with me. It was great... anyway, I had a good visit, everything looked fine, and in the infertility department he said "There's nothing else I can do for you...(awkward moment, when my crazy mind is thinking 'well, there is... but...'), you should really follow up with your RE. And I have. 

I made an appointment with my RE. We sat down and she discussed all the wonderful things, like needing to try a new donor, me having ancient eggs being that I'm 35, and upping my Letrozole/Femara by 3. (And, yes, this is also used to treat breast cancer patients.) She also added some Pre-conception supplements, Theralogix NeoQ10 and TheraCore. 

I started taking the supps over 3 weeks ago. I did learn that I have to take them at night and not lunchtime because they make me feel bloated. Not a big deal, just changed the reminder on my Glow app. 

Yesterday was the first night that I took the 3 Letrozole... so far today I do not feel crazy or hopped up on hormones. I will keep you posted. 

Easter Sunday

Yesterday was a rough day for me. It was Easter Sunday. Easter to me is about family. Being with family, kids running around in the yard hiding and hunting eggs, a big meal. This is how I grew up. But this is not how I spent my Easter day yesterday. 

Yes, we had a very uplifting and worshipful Resurrection service. There was even a rededication from one gentleman. The service started off with praise to God, but then when we had announcements and the pastor mentioned an elite family in the community having just adopting a child from China, my demeanor fell. This family are not members of our church and it really, really hurt my soul to hear this (I had just found out about their adoption 3 days earlier on top of that).

Infertility is a hard road to walk. It is not for the weak. But every time I hear of news like this, I think it breaks me down a little more. I don't know how much more I can bear. People just seeming adopting out of thin air, when we have struggled and fought for over 5 years.